Monthly Archives: August 2008

Final Preparations

I’ve spent most of the past two weeks at my new school.

I’ve cleaned and organized my classroom. I’ve hung up banners, posters, and decorated my bulletin boards. I’ve extensively planned the first day of school. I’ve drawn up a rough plan of the entire school year.

I’ve typed up a newsletter to go home the first day of school. I’ve photocopied material for the first day of activities.

I’ve written a welcome message on the blackboard. My name is on the classroom door.

I’ve written a schedule so that both my students and I will know what to expect every day of the school week.

I’ve sharpened pencils. I’ve put crayons, a sharpened pencil and a sharpener in pencil cases for each student.

I’ve learned the school rules and procedures.

I’ve been part of a First Aid training course this week and now have an updated First Aid and CPR certificate. This is one of the preparations I sure hope that I never have to use.

Today, is the last day of preparations. School starts on Tuesday, right after this last hurrah of summer.

It’s hard to believe that the summer is over already. One more long weekend. But I’m ready to start school on Tuesday. I think.

It seems like there is always something else to do in this job. A teacher is never really off-duty.

I know I have some work to do this weekend but I will try to enjoy the last free weekend of the summer. I won’t have computer access on the holiday Monday, so I will be taking a small break. Wish me luck, classes start on Tuesday. Now, time to go and make my last minute preparations.

This Time of Year I Miss TV Guide

I remember the first time I went to a grocery store and couldn’t find a TV Guide to look at while I waited in line. I scanned the other aisles thinking that perhaps they were just sold out in this aisle. But I didn’t see any.

TV Guide became a casualty in this modern age of television. Satellite and digital cable have their own on-screen program guides. Regular cable TV has a TV listing channel. Who needs a printed TV Guide anymore?

But this is really the time of year that I miss the publication. I collected TV Guides for about two years and have boxes full of them. It’s pretty interesting to look back at them. They really give a snapshot of the time and era they were printed. I would’ve kept collecting them but my money needed to go to other things so I stopped. But I still picked up two or three issues this time of year.

I looked forward to the “New Shows” issue every year. TV Guide always wrote about the new shows with passion and showed a dedication to excellent TV. I valued their opinions and used it to help me choose how to spend my viewing time.

They also published an issue focusing on “Returning Shows” and one about “New Kid Shows.”

I like looking back at these issues and seeing which shows didn’t survive. Some great shows never really caught on. And some horrible shows manage to stay on the air. That always happens.

But now I don’t really know what to do with this new season of fall premiers. I don’t have the TV Guide to help me navigate through the good and the bad. I only have rabbit ears so I don’t get a TV listings channel. And I only get seven channels so I couldn’t even watch some of the new shows anyway. But I would like to read about them and add them to my collection.

Oh well, TV Guide you are missed. I understand that there is an online version but not having the Internet at home makes that pretty much useless for me. Besides, it’s not the same.

What’s The Priority?

“We are experiencing higher than normal call volumes. Please stay on the line and your call will be answered in priority sequence.”

I’ve heard this automated response dozens of times from different companies. The first time I heard it was when I was on the phone with the gas company. To the gas company’s credit, they gave another number to call if the call was about a gas-related emergency.

My call was about my bill and a problem with it. I patiently waited on the line and kept getting subjected to the automated response. My patience started to wear down after hearing the message over and over again and waiting for someone to just answer my call.

After an excruciatingly long time, my call was answered and I exploded at the agent. “Your message says that calls are held in priority sequence. Well, how do you know what the priority is if you never get to me?”

The agent didn’t have an answer for me. It was his time to be patient. He dealt with my problem in an effective manner, even though I was rude to him. He had no control over the automated operator at all.

This happened years ago and I’ve never really forgotten it. Well, today, I was subjected to this message again when calling about my credit card. I decided to look up the word “priority” because I always took it to mean that there are things that are more important than others and are put in order according to importance.

But I was surprised to see the definition of priority as “the fact or condition of being prior; precedence in time…”

I stopped reading. The telephone message actually makes sense. The calls are taken in the order that they are received.

I always thought of priority as the third definition listed; “a right to precedence over others in obtaining, buying, or doing something.”

For example, hospital emergency rooms put patients in priority sequence. They take the serious patients who need immediate treatment first and assess which patience need care before others.

So I learned something new today. I learned that priority can also mean just a regular line up.

I must admit that I don’t like this definition even though I know it is correct. I just find it misleading. I want companies to tell us like it is. Can’t they just program the phones to say that the calls will be answered in sequence?

Let’s leave out the adjective “priority.” In fact, if you are in charge of the company phone system please make this a priority, I would appreciate it. Thanks.

You Can’t Throw That Out

“Garbage day! Can we go see Mom?”

Remember when you used to do that? I’m sure every young boy thinks that garbage day is an event. But like all events, things aren’t the same as they used to be.

I remember watching the garbage truck pull up to the curb. Two men would jump off the back, toss in all the bags that were on the curb, and then jump back on the truck. They stood up on the back foot ledge and held onto a handle on the side. The truck would pull up to the next pile on the curb and they would jump off and do the same thing.

And if you were lucky, you would see them activate the crusher. It would compact the garbage.

Yeah, garbage day was an event when I was a kid.

It became an event when I was a teenager too because of recycling. “You can’t throw that out!” I’d yell at my parents. I became a recycling champion and made sure we recycled everything we could.

Well, things sure have changed. Recycling is still going strong in my household but garbage day is completely different now. I watched the garbage truck for old time’s sake last week and noticed that there was only one person on the truck. There used to be a driver and two collectors. It used to be a three-person job. When, and how, did it become a one-person job? And did anybody notice?

And some municipalities are now making you prepay to have this garbage service. You have to go to the store and buy garbage tags. They cost $1.50 each and are basically a sticker with a numeric code on them. You attach this sticker to the top of each bag that you put out to the curb. Bags without a sticker tag on them will not be picked up. They will remain on the curb.

I think this is crazy. I think it is a good idea to encourage people to cut down on their garbage but I also know some people can’t afford to buy these tags. And where do these people put their garbage? Some are taking it to work to throw out there. Others might be dumping it somewhere.

I think garbage put out on the curb should be collected, within reason. Maybe we could just ration it – one free bag per household. I don’t think we should be telling people that they can’t throw out their garbage.

My Teaching Mission Statement

“To help every student develop to his or her full potential. To develop intellectual potential and provide opportunities for social, ethical, emotional, physical, and aesthetic development of every child in my class, and by extension, the entire student body whenever the opportunity presents itself.”

This is my teaching mission statement. I think it is important to have a teaching philosophy that you can actually express. This statement shows how intricate the art of teaching really is. It says nothing about every area of study and the expectations students are to master by the end of the year in each grade. But it doesn’t have to. It says a lot and is straight to the point.

I think it shows the importance of my job and how seriously I take it.

I have expectations for my students too. These are simple and easy to follow;

“In this class, we…

Respect – each other, property, rules


Do Our Work!

Do Our Best!”

That really does cover everything and it will help my class to run smoothly. I still have lots to do to be ready for day 1 of classes on Monday, but I am well on my way now.

Inconsiderate of Those Who Come Behind

Yesterday I wrote about my experience in Scouts. Today, I can’t think of a better way to start this post then one of the lesser-known mottos of the organization; “Leave it cleaner than you found it.”

That’s what I did. When the school year ended in June, I left the class in impeccable condition. I put all the classroom resources together in labeled boxes. I cleaned out my desk and filing cabinet completely. I didn’t leave any garbage or useless materials behind.

Whatever teacher inherits my old classroom will have an easy time seeing what resources are there. They will be able to unpack them in any way that they see fit. And they will be able to set up the class to whatever specifications they prefer.

This is how it should be. Teachers need to be considerate of those who come behind them.

Unfortunately when I walked into my new classroom this week, I was met with a disorganized mess.

I spent most of this week just cleaning up. I’ve thrown out three garbage bags worth of junk that was left behind. I’ve spent hours going through the cupboards trying to locate and organize the resources. They were everywhere and in no order whatsoever.

Cleaning the blackboard was the hardest job. For some reason, the previous teacher had marked permanent lines in yellow all the way across the long board at the front of the room. It looked horrible and would extremely limit what I could do with the board. Needless to say, it had to come off. I had to use rubbing alcohol and really scrub to get it off. It took me over two hours to do so. I even lost some of the skin on my thumb in the process.

And I’m not even done yet. I will probably have to spend another four or five hours just cleaning and organizing my room. It’s ridiculous.

I just want to move in and get organized, do some planning, and get ready for the school year. Classes start in two weeks. I’ve still got a lot of work to do before then.

I just wish teachers would have some consideration for those who come behind them, and leave their rooms cleaner than they found it. I know that I will do that again at the end of this school year, even if I will be returning to the same room. It’s just the right thing to do.


“Softly falls the light of day
as my campfire fades away.
Silently each cub should ask,
Have I done my daily task?
have I kept my cub laws true?
taught to me by old Baloo
Always try to do my best,
God grant me a quiet rest.”

We sang this song at the end of every Cub Scout meeting.

The Cub Scout program is loosely based on The Jungle Book. The leaders all take on names from that famous work. If you have seen the Disney Cartoon, you will know that Baloo is a bear and he teaches Mowgli the laws of the jungle.

I learned a lot in the Scouting Organization. Many of those lessons carry on with me today. I also try my best to work in some of those great lessons into my classroom. In fact, I am convinced that had I not joined scouts as a youth that I would not have found my calling as a teacher.

I like that this song encourages us all to try our best everyday no matter what. It reminds us that we all have daily tasks, even as children. I think that children need responsibility and need to work hard at something.

I worked hard to earn badges and live up to the Scout Law,

“A Scout is:

Helpful and trustworthy,
Kind and cheerful,
Considerate and clean,
Wise in the use of his resources.”

These are great lessons that I think anyone can take something from. I like how they are easy to understand for children and easy to live up to (with a little effort and dedication – that is)

Words to live by, that’s for sure.

Amazing Beauty and Grace

It was something else to watch Usain Bolt sprint his way into the record books this morning. Commentators didn’t expect him to do it. They thought after running seven races during these summer games that he would be too spent. It wasn’t a priority for him to even attempt the record.

But right out of the blocks, Bolt showed everyone that he is something amazing. He got to the front of the pack and nobody could touch him. It looked unreal. I jumped up from the couch and watched in bated breath.

Bolt sprinted passed the finish line and immediately celebrated. He made Olympic history by shattering the world record with a time of 19:30 in the 200-metre event. He also broke the world record for the 100-metre event and was the first person to ever break both records in one Olympic games.

It was also his 22nd birthday. And he was running into a headwind. The crowd sang him “Happy Birthday.” All the other runners congratulated him.

Just prior to this run, Allyson Felix won the 200-metre event. She looked absolutely beautiful. She ran with a grace that made it look like she was just leisurely walking down the street.

I love watching runners. Some of them make it look effortless. I know it’s not. It takes a lot of training and energy. That’s why I think it is so beautiful to see what the human body is capable of. These two runners really made my morning. All I can say is that they showed amazing beauty and grace. It was absolutely beautiful.

Dragons Can Be Defeated

“The important thing about any story where you fight a dragon is not that you’re telling people that dragons are real. But that you’re telling people that dragons can be defeated. And that is a huge, true thing. And something that should never be forgotten.”
– Neil Gaiman, writer Beowulf from the DVD bonus feature “Beasts of Burden”

I thought I’d go back to the Commonplace Tuesday feature I used to run on this blog today. I really like this quote. It shows us the great power of metaphor.

If you love quotations as much as I do, then please stop by Thoughtful Cacophony to see my collection. I post up a different quote every weekday. On Tuesdays I post an quote that I have collected from the television or movies.

This is today’s post on my sister blog. I hope by posting it here as well that I have not broken any blogging protocols. I just really like this quote. And the movie really surprised me. I watched it on DVD this weekend. It was good.

What Does It Mean to Be a Child?

A long time ago, children were thought of as mini-adults. Childhood was not a concept that was understood. So when did children become children and what exactly does it mean to be a child?

It happened in the middle ages. It became necessary for middle class parents to train their children in a trade so that the family could have that extra income. During this period of apprenticeship, it became apparent that childhood was a distinct period of life. Before the twelfth century, there really was no definable period of life known as childhood.

The rise of the middle class and the education of children into a trade changed, or perhaps created, the modern definition of what it means to be a child.

Another significant shift that helped define childhood came about during the Industrial Revolution. Those in power at the time began to define and reinforce issues of privacy in order to secure a workforce. Thus, the privacy of home life, and the home as a place of retreat after a hard day of work was illustrated and reinforced. As such, the child became the centre of a family in a new way.

All of this led to the golden age of children’s literature, which spawned books written entirely for the entertainment of children. Which of course today has spawned into TV programs, video games, and all sorts of consumer products.

It seems that the definition of childhood has changed over the years. This definition varies by culture as well. Yet no one seems to question the modern definition of childhood. Maybe it is time we did. Childhood is ready for a redefinition. What do you think?

Welcome to My Talk Show

I have begun to think of blogging like talk radio.

I love talk radio.

It is great to tune into to a show daily and hear the host speak about a variety of topics. My favourite talk shows don’t carve out a niche. They explore a vast array of topics. And this is important.

I don’t normally care what topic my favourite hosts put on their shows. That’s not why I tune in. I tune in because of their personality. I tune in because of the way they handle the discussion. I tune in because it is comforting to hear them. I think blogs are like this as well.

I visit blogs regularly because it feels like I have a connection to the author. I like to join in on the discussion. I like to hear their take on issues. I like being exposed to topics and discussions that I wouldn’t otherwise be interested in.

This is why I don’t think blogs need to be limited in focus. Yet, I see things written all the time that say we need to identify our audience and write for them. I don’t believe in this.

I think as authors we needs to write primarily for ourselves. We need to write with passion, we need to be open and honest in our writings, and we need to foster discussion by replying to comments with respect. If we do all of this, then we are a lot like radio talk show hosts.

So come on tune in to my show every weekday. I will be here discussing things that may concern you, things you might not have thought about, and things you probably should think about.

Agree with me, disagree with me, it doesn’t matter. Join the discussion. I look forward to hearing from you as much as you do reading me. Without your readership and comments this blog wouldn’t work. We are in this together.

Thanks for joining Silent Cacophony, the Chase March show.

We’re Coming Up Short

I’ve heard a lot of talk and disappointment over the fact that Canada still has not been up to the podium at the Olympics. We seem to be coming up short on every event. And of course, people are upset about this. We want to celebrate our country. We want to have pride in our athletes. But here is the real problem, we don’t support them.

Sure, for the few days that the games are on every four years, we are all hyped up about our athletes and their chances to win big. But what about the four years leading up to the games?

It takes years of training and competing to be ready for the world stage. We simply don’t have the infrastructure or monies to properly support our athletes over the four years prior to the games. This is the real reason that we haven’t won any medals.

How can we expect to compete with athletes who have been training for six hours everyday? athletes that have huge government incentives to win? athletes that have complete support from their community and country?

We need to care about our athletes every day, not just during the olympic games. We need to give them enough funding that they can train the way they need to. How can we expect an athlete to train sufficiently if they have to go to school and hold done a part-time job as well? It’s crazy.

We need training facilities. We need to be able to send our athletes to competitions around the world prior to the games. Athletes get better with training and competition. Canadian athletes often lack these things.

So, if this is important to us, and it is to me, we need to step up to the government and demand that our athletes are treated better. We can’t whine and complain that they don’t perform when we don’t support them. We can’t have it both ways. We can’t skimp on them and then celebrate them when they win and hold them up only then. It’s not fair to them and it’s two-faced.

So let’s do the right thing here and support our athletes through these games and through the next four years to the next games. That will make a difference. I guarantee it. And next time, we will have medal upon medal. We have the talent here, I’m sure of it. We just need to support that talent, nurture it, and help it fully develop.

Comment Moderation – On or Off?

I have had comment moderation on my blog since I started it. I wanted to make sure that no offensive comments or language were ever posted on my blog. But so far, I haven’t deleted one comment because of this criteria. In fact, the only comments that I didn’t approve were spam. And that has only happened twice.

The comment moderation feature does not allow me to alter the comment in any way. It just gives me two options; approve or deny. I normally approve every comment that I get, and I wouldn’t want to edit anyone else’s thoughts anyway.

So, I’ve been thinking that maybe I don’t need to moderate comments anymore. I’m a little hesitant to cancel the feature though, simply because I want to keep my blog G-rated. But I think that normal people, and my readers in particular, won’t take advantage of an open comment format.

Most of my favourite blogs don’t seem to moderate comments. And they don’t seem to have a problem with inappropriate remarks. Besides, I can always delete a comment after it has been posted if need be.

I also like going to other blogs and seeing my comment appear immediately. Your comments won’t show up immediately on my blog. They only show up after I have approved them. My question is, do you like to wait? Does it scare you away from making a comment? Does it impede the discussion?

Man, I’ve got so many questions about this feature. But I’m still sitting on the fence. So what do you think, should comment moderation stay on my blog or should it go bye bye?

4 Things to Keep in Your Car

Yesterday I wrote about the 4 important things you should keep in your wallet. Today I am expanding the list to 4 things you should keep in your car. Here they are,

1) A Blanket

A Blanket is a very useful thing to have in the back of the car. It can be used for a variety of things. You can use it for warmth if you break down somewhere. You can use it to kneel down on or lie on if you need to work under your car. And it can also be used to carry people or other things if need
be. It is versatile and doesn’t take up much room. Put one in your trunk today.

2) Coins

I throw my spare change into the ashtray. I always make sure that I have a fair amount of money in there. It can come in handy if you are stuck somewhere and need to buy something to eat or drink form a vending machine. Plus, you never know when you might need money for a parking meter.

3) A Small Tool Kit

Once again, this is something that you may never use. But it is a great idea to keep on hand just in case you need to do some unforeseen repairs. You may find that you need a tool one day for a reason that has nothing to do with your car. If that happens you will be glad to have it.

4) A First Aid Kit

Accidents happen. It’s a good thing to be prepared for them. This is something that you will hopefully never have to use. But it could make all the difference one day. So get one, stock it up, and keep it under your seat. ** Sometimes in an accident you can’t get to the trunk. **

Honourable Mentions

These are 4 things that you should have in your car but I can think others that might be just as important one day. So here are a few honourable mentions,

A Candle and Matches

A Candle in the middle of the car can warm it up immensely until help arrives on a cold winter day. Put it in a old tin can with a box of waterproof matches. That plus a blanket could help you pull through a long time in the cold.

Jumper Cables

It’s easy to get a boost if your battery dies if you actually have the cables.

Toys / Distractions

If you have or travel with kids, have a few things on hand that can keep them occupied if you get stuck. I keep some picture books and a few small balls in my trunk.


I never pull out of my driveway without a bottle of water. Even if you only plan a short trip to the mall. Things may happen that keep you out longer. Water is an essential and if you have a refillable bottle you can always use it to top up the radiator if need be as well.

Be Prepared

These little things can be put in your car and kept there. They don’t take up much room, you might not ever need to use them, but you will be happy they are there if you do.

Please check my list of things to keep in your wallet. With these few items on your person and in you car, you are sure to be prepared for the little unexpected things that always seem to arise at some point in our lives.

It always helps to be prepared.

4 Things to Keep in Your Wallet

I always carry these four things in my wallet. I think it goes back to my Boy Scout days and the motto “Be Prepared.” Well, things have certainly changed since then. So my list has changed too. Here it is,

1) A prepaid phone card

In Scouts we were always told to carry a quarter on our person just in case we had to make a phone call. Pay phones now cost $0.50 and sometimes we need to make a long distance card. So instead of carrying a lot of change, I carry a President’s Choice Prepaid Long Distance Card.

This card is awesome because you dial an 800 number and then punch in your pin. You can then dial any number in North America for 4 cents a minute. So if you need to make a quick local call, it only costs 4 cents instead of 50. And if you have to make a long distance call, you don’t have to feed the phone quarter after quarter.

Even if you have a cell phone this is a good thing to have in case your phone dies.

A must have for my wallet.

2) Phone Number List

I have a piece of paper in my bill fold with important phone numbers written on it. It has my parents’ work numbers, my aunt and uncles’ numbers, and a few other important numbers on it. This way if there is ever an emergency I have plenty of contact numbers on me.

This is also good to do even if you have a cell phone just in case the batteries die and you can’t access your stored numbers.

3) A Blank Cheque

Sometimes you may need a cheque and you won’t have your chequebook on you. In these cases, a cheque in your wallet is a lifesaver. I know it’s come in handy for me several times.

4) A Small Thumb Drive

Sometimes you need to save an important document from someone else’s computer. They make these so small now that one can actually fit in your coin compartment or even in a credit card holder.

Be Prepared

These are great things to carry on your person. I have a list of things to keep in your car too. It’s a longer list but I plan on posting it here soon.

It always helps to be prepared.

What Happened to Pan and Scan?

I used to love renting movies and seeing the green screen with white printing that reads “This movie has been modified from its original version. It has been formatted to fit your screen.”

Now when I put on a video or DVD, I rarely see this warning any more. And then when the movie starts to play, I am forced to watch only a fraction of my screen. The picture doesn’t fit my TV any more.

The problem is that movie screens are wider than television screens. So if we want a picture to fill up our entire TV screen, we need to cut a little bit of that picture out. So when the movie is put out on video, it is formatted using a process called “Pan and Scan.”

When most movies are presented in pan and scan, the general public won’t notice any difference. Sure we’ve lost some of the picture but pan and scan formatters are really good at their job and cut out the edges of the picture that aren’t really necessary to capture to story and emotion of the film.

I don’t own a wide screen TV. But I can appreciate why they have become so popular. It certainly is nice to recreate the theatre experience at home. Even TV shows have gotten into the act and now film in widescreen format. Shows and movies at home now feel a little bit bigger.

The only problem is that my viewing experience is now a wee bit smaller. Those black bars on the top and bottom of my screen never seem to go away. DVDs used to be labelled in big writing when they were “Widescreen Format.” Nowadays it seems that it is just expected and the labels have started to disappear. Well, I miss pan and scan formatting. Sometime I just want to sit down and watch a movie that pulls me in. A movie that looks full when played in my living room. I guess I may just have to go back to my old collection for that to happen. Pan and scan seems to be dead on any new releases. I mourn the loss (or maybe I just need a new TV.)

Split Class – Now What?

I’ve never been subjected to a split class, not as a student and not as a teacher. And for that I’m glad.

I think the practice of putting two classes together under one teacher is extremely unfair. It’s unfair to the teacher who has to cram two years worth of material into one year. It’s also unfair for the students who have to share their teacher and wait for him to finish up with one grade level before moving on to the next.

But I don’t want to complain. I’ve been giving a split grade assignment for the new year and I am up for the challenge. I’m just a little worried about how to teach two classes and two completely different curriculums at the same time.

The main problem will be teaching science, social studies, and health. The grade level curriculum for these subject areas is quite diverse. At least with math and English, I can teach one lesson and vary the assignment so that it fits both grade levels. But with science, I will have to teach one lesson and get my students quietly working so that I can teach another lesson to the second half of my class.

I’m excited and nervous about the prospect of teaching a Grade 3/4 split class. But my mind is going a million miles a minute, thinking about what to do with this challenge.

So while I have one month left of summer vacation, I have already started planning for September. One can never be over prepared for teaching. I am hoping that I can find a way to make my long range plans work smoothly for both my students and myself next year. We should never have to feel short-changed by this situation (and we won’t.)

Work It In

It’s funny how my original Silent Cacophony book that I wrote in a coil notebook got put away for years but would not die. It stayed with me, even when I thought it was completely lost. And when I thought of starting a blog I knew that it had to have the same title. But after finding my book two weeks ago, I was shocked to see that the coil notebook was indeed the start of this blog.

It kind of reminds me of the original idea I had for my last novel. I wrote a scene that told me exactly what the book was going to be about. I couldn’t seem to start the novel though. It took me a few weeks to get going on it as I cooked the idea some more in my brain.

That original scene didn’t actually come into the novel until I was way into it. It managed to fit nicely into chapter 3. It managed to work itself in.

I always wanted to be a writer. In fact, I considered myself a writer long before I started this blog. I was just a writer that didn’t write. A writer who tinkered around with some horrible poetry and some pretty pedestrian rhymes. A writer who had a novel in him but couldn’t find the time to write it. A writer who was scared to even try.

But the story wouldn’t leave me alone. It was hard to write that first one but the story insisted on being told. It found a way to work in to my life. And I’m glad it did.

I love writing now. I have written quite a few different things since then. And I plan on continuing to write. Writing has managed to work its way into my life just as those original writings in my notebook found their way into my blog.

It’s amazing how things seem to work out, but they always do. It seems like I tried to start this blog a decade too early. Like Barbara, I seemed to be blogging without a blog. Perhaps the timing just wasn’t right. But it looked like I knew what I wanted to do with it. I’m just glad that I finally did it, and I will keep doing it. Silent Cacophony for life!

A Page Burns

A page burns in the fire at my campsite. There is no more proof of the error I made on that page. A trivial error it was, but an error nonetheless. As I watch the paper crumple and burn I wonder about ends. The ends of things. The ends of life. The paper is no more but in its place is a warm fire that continues to burn; life from death. Symbolic yes but full of meaning.

I love being on vacation. I never wear a watch on vacation. Although time is precious. I fill the day with activity but I am not a slave to the clock. Upon my return home I will no longer be free. Still a slave to the clock. Punch in at 8:00 a.m., Punch out at 4:00 p.m. The clock rules my day.

Strange how society works, isn’t it? Some thoughts don’t connect. Some people don’t connect, like me. A “conservative loner” by choice. I was actually described like this by an employer once. An irrelevant fact because I could not change my person, not for him, not for anybody. I am what I am. “A conservative loner.”

I have an innate sense of honesty. I posses an independence of mind, but I have not learned to moderate that trait. Blunt to a fault and impatient with subordinates, I have earned a reputation for being difficult and creating unnecessary tension among the crew of every social structure I serve.

Often misunderstood, Frequently misquoted, and always separated (isolated.) Why has this book become a personal analysis? Unknown. For now, back to


Yes! It is an oxymoron. But I am a moron who uses oxy on my pimples, so it is kind of suiting. Nah, I’m playing. (Kidding)

I have had a week of inconveniences, not a bad week, a week of inconveniences. I think that is the politically correct way to say it now.

That is the end of my weeklong jump back into time. The past seven posts were originally written by me in the Summer of 1995 or the Winter of 1996 in the original Silent Cacophony book that I was putting together. I hope you enjoyed this jump back in time as much as I did.

Tomorrow I will be back to my regular posting routine. This book is a lot shorter in length than I remembered. But it was the start to Silent Cacophony as you and I know it today. I hope you enjoyed this trip back in time.

Time is Like Ink

I get philosophical and introspective quite often. Perhaps too often, could it be that I think too much? No, negative side effects have never been proven, it could just be that getting introspective about being introspective could undermine all I know or ought to have known to be significant and purposeful.

Perhaps my life flows like ink and an error cannot be corrected without notice. Time travel cannot be possible but if it were? Hmm.